I’ll began with the old me and let you know how and why a new me was necessary. I had to restructure my life after I found out I had an illness that would take my health to an all time low.
Let me give my illness a name. Liver disease, Primary Bilinary Cirrhosis (PBC) and kidney disease, End Stage Renal. Big words for big problems. First I was told about the liver disease, it is an auto immune disease. That means that it will eventually cause the other organs in my body to fail. I tell everyone I know and everyone that will listen to never ever take Tynoil, at will harm your liver. Alright, this is my advice to everyone, to please at least read the label on the package. There is information there that will help you make an informative decision about taking the drug.
Let me give you the heads up about having Primary Bilinary Cirrhosis. This disease makes you itch. That’s how I found out there was a problem, I felt like I had bugs crawling under my skin, very uncomfortable.
I think as a people we hear about a drug that will relieve us of some discomfort and we take it not thinking about what it will do to our bodies later. We are just satisfied to be out of pain.
Side effects are sometimes worst than the original problem.
Since my diagnosis my kidneys have failed, my heart beat has slowed to a rate that my doctors want to put in a pacemaker, my bones are brittle, my eyes have dried out so much that I have to put drops in them every day so I can blink without pain and the word tired has an all new meaning.
I was a truck driver and pulled freight in an eighteen-wheeler for a trucking company. I did over-the-road driving. That means that I traveled the 48 states and Canada. It was an adventure that I got paid to do. My handle, call name was Secretary because I was good at the paperwork. Believe me there is more paperwork than driving. I did this for ten years. This country is absolutely beautiful if you take the time to look at it.
When you are young you never think of being ill. You take your health for granted; hey, “I’ll never be sick”…other than an occasional head cold.
When I found out I had this life altering illness I went through the “Oh why me?” syndrome. But God has always been in my life so I prayed and I prayed hard and realized that I was being given a test to my ability to show strength in the face of adversity. I was shown that life is precious whether you feel good or not. I was diagnose with this disease twelve years ago and at that time doctors told me that within five years I would need a transplant but I still has all my original parts and I’m not hook up to any machines. I’ve had my ups and downs, in and out of the hospital, but thank God I’m here.
I try to find the good in everything, with the kidney disease I can go to movies and not miss any of it because of a bathroom run.
I had to come off the road and start a new life staying in one place. The old me had to adjust. It was hard to adjust staying home at first, but the illness made me so tired and sleepy that eventually I got use to being home.
I was naturally a loaner and driving was the ideal job, but what I learned was that I needed people and people needed me. My family and friends was and is the source of my strength. Without them I would be lost.
For a while I had to depend on my family and friends for my basic needs, needs that we all take for granted. Things like help bathing, putting on my clothes and shoes and making sure I ate. They were and are there for me when I need them. You really find out how much you are loved when you are in the position that you can’t bathe yourself.
Twelve years later my life is good and I very happy with my life and the new me. I have to granddaughters,ages ten and seven, that keep me busy. I’m surrounded by the love of my family and friends and most of all the love of God.
I still struggle with these illness’ every day, but I live every day to the fullest and I will not let it get the best of me. I keep smiling, moving and enjoying life.